Wow.

Charlie, Marcia, and Netsua were all right.

Especially Marcia.

I really doubted that would be the case. But there was SO much sexual tension built up between Mairead and I over a period of an extremely long time. I definitely had the most fun time of my life yesterday. Had there been something other than a concrete floor to lay on, had there been a condom in my pocket, and had her mother not been 20 feet away in the building next door, there would be nothing to stop Mairead and I from sex.

I am SO much more aroused by her now. I really, really, REALLY want to fuck her. I mean, seriously. I've never felt this attracted to someone.

It took me a while to finally kiss her. Right now, I wouldn't be possibly able to have a public, open relationship with Mairead. And I couldn't help but think, maybe that's what she wants. But then I also thought, "What if she doesn't want me at all? What if I'm only being invited over as a friend?" What a fool I was.

She made it clear that she doesn't want to date either. Neither of us can bear the whole 'high school relationshit drama' anymore. But that doesn't mean that we can't be friends! Real good friends.... Real good friends with benefits.... Real good friends with benefits that are kept secret....
Apparently, Laurel Rothrock doesn't 'approve' of me, which is strange considering I barely know Laurel. I don't think I've spoken to her since I was in 8th grade. That's most of the reason Mairead doesn't want to date.

And I'm not sure how Ely or Hunter or Malcolm would feel about Mairead and me. Well, Malcolm and Hunter probably wouldn't give a shit, but Ely might be a little annoyed with me.

...

Now Mairead and I are wondering when we'll have a chance to do this again. It will have to be a time when nobody is around, of course, Yesterday was the first time I had even seen Mairead without Nigel nearby. This is going to be difficult. Meanwhile, Mairead and I will just act like we're only friends in public. (We'll probably flirt when nobody's looking...)

It may be two weeks before Mairead and I can even kiss again. Two weeks is a long time. I just know it's going to drag by, second by second. But this seperation (Which won't really be a seperation considering we'll be seeing each other every day) will help build up more desire and interest. Or maybe we'll lose some interest. I hope that's not the case.

Maybe we can slip into the drama closet sometime when nobody's looking after school. Yeah, we'll probably end up doing that.